I am a 17 year old girl. I have good God fearing parents who give me whatever I need. I have been studying in good schools and I have good friends. I never go hungry nor do I lack in anything. I accepted Jesus when I was in class 3. Yet despite all that I  lived a bitter life. My childhood days was not like others and I always envied when others spoke of their childhood. I stayed in hostels since I was 8 years old, and my struggle there was painful. I had good times but the bad times were there too. Vacations at home were worse. I spent most of the nights crying silently. I felt like I was carrying a heavy burden on my back. Nobody showed me kindness and love. I found myself pleasing others too much. People thought I was retarded. I changed school to be in a new environment, but there was no change in me. I had a very bad temper, was aggressive and naughty. I also fell ill often. I began to draw away from God. Some ugly incidents happened and my heart was darkened by grudges, anger, hatred and loneliness. I could not laugh at all for more than a year. Until 3 weeks ago when Pastor Shan called out for those who wanted to be set free from burdens. I hesitated at first, but I believe it was the Holy Spirit who told me to go. Ever since that prayer my heart has been freed from all guilt, hatred, temptations and even sickness. Praise God!

I realized that I was blinded by the enemy due to my bitterness. Realising my identity in Christ has given me a light heart and there is no more darkness. My message to all is to not let negative thoughts get into your mind. 17 years of my life were destroyed, but its never too late in Christ. I still face struggles but I don’t mind because my solution is Jesus and I always run to Him. Praise the Lord and Shalom.

-Manlee Vaam